These are two entries from my visual diary during this pandemic. My drawings illustrate the realizations I had about myself while in quarantine. Isolation made me aware of the regrets and pains I wanted to forget. I was confronted by my past and I couldn’t escape. I realized for the first time that I must acknowledge and accept all the pain I caused and experienced to move on with my life and be happy. The first drawing represents myself recognizing everything that embodies my identity, and in doing so I can finally be at peace with who I am and want to be. The second drawing depicts myself looking back and seeing my past that drags me down rather than lift me up. I was inspired by Friedrich Nietzsche’s famous quote “Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster, for when you gaze long into the abyss. The abyss gazes also into you.”